Something's Gotta Give

My feelings aren’t always consistent, and I’ve made peace with that. They shift based on what’s actually happening between us right now, not our history, not some idea of what we could be. Just what’s real in this moment.

And honestly? That’s fine by me.

I match energy. That’s just how I’m built. If you’re showing up for me, I’m showing up for you. If you check in, I’ll check in. If you include me, I’ll include you. But if you’re half in, half out, I can’t force warmth that isn’t there. I’ve tried. It’s exhausting and it never ends well.

I know some people love the same way regardless of what they’re getting back. I genuinely respect that. It’s just not me. I’ve done the one-sided thing enough times to know it only leaves you feeling empty and a little foolish for caring so much about someone who wasn’t really in it.

What I’ve figured out is that relationships find their own level. When both people are putting in effort, everything flows naturally. When one person stops, I stop overextending. I’m not going to carry something alone and pretend it feels good just because we have history.

That doesn’t mean I don’t care. I do, deeply. But my care follows where it’s actually received.

So if you ever wonder where you stand with me, it’s simple. Show up and I’ll show up. Be real and I’ll be real. When it’s mutual, I’m fully there. When it’s not, I’m not going to pretend otherwise.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​