Explaining

It’s funny how people say they’re not explaining themselves, then write a whole paragraph about why they don’t owe anyone an explanation.

“I don’t owe anyone an explanation. I have outgrown the need to prove myself to people who never understood me anyway. If you think I’ve changed, that’s your problem. I’m just moving different now. Protecting my peace. Keeping my circle small. Not everyone deserves access to me”

Everyone wants to act like they’ve detached, but they still need people to see it. 

It’s not “please understand me,” it’s more like “hey you, look how unbothered I am.”

People don’t want to seem like they care, but they still want you to see that they don’t care. Like when someone snaps their whole day, then posts “private life, happy life.” Or when they swear they’re not bothered about someone, but somehow still end up responding to the indirects. Everyone wants to seem above it all, while swimming deep in it.

When did detachment become an aesthetic though? It’s like being bothered has somewhat became embarrassing. 

Everyone’s trying to out-chill each other, like being “unbov” is an iconic personality trait. But truth is, most people care more than they want to admit, they just don’t want to look like the one who does.